starseed

I don’t know if I’m officially losing it, or actually becoming enlightened. When you’re completely off your rocker, you don’t know, right? So yesterday I read something about being a “starseed”. Has anyone heard of this before? Basically, it’s when you have a soul that has lived a bunch of lives both on the earth and in other planes. Their soul is here on a mission to help humanity and there are all different types. I think I am a Lightworker. “The Lightworker are special souls from a variety of planets and realms who have agreed to incarnate to help Earth and other worlds evolve. They always take births that up-level humanity and raise consciousness of everyone around them. Their primary purpose is to spread kindness, goodness, and love every living being they meet. They work solely for the light” (Gaia). If I’m not one of these souls, Ian definitely is. That’s what he brought to this planet-he taught people kindness, goodness, and true love to everyone he met.

Maybe I’m having a religious experience, it’s just not a traditional experience. Maybe this is my “come to Jesus” moment, but it’s just not Jesus that is making me understand things. Apparently, starseeds are in the dark about their souls purpose until an awakening, often preceded by a big life event. In my case, Ian dying. If you go back and read my posts, you will see that I was talking about this, before I knew I was talking about it. I was talking about being empathetic, having extreme intuition, always living my life with kindness, feeling like we go to other dimensions instead of heaven. These are all things that starseeds experience. A few years ago a friend told me that she thought I was a starseed, and I thought she was crazy.

I’ve always been very open-minded and understood that there is really nothing that we know for certain. That our knowledge and experience is so much smaller than the bigger picture. And, I still believe that I don’t really know anything. This starseed thing could very well be bonkers, but if my soul’s purpose is to bring light to the earth, I guess there can be no harm in that. Every therapist has always wanted me to grasp on to something spiritual (however, that normally means Christianity), and I guess this is no different. I have to make sense of my son’s life cut short, for no apparent reason, and I guess whatever brings me peace with that (regardless of what that is) is what I should lean on. There is actually a lot of information regarding this, and a lot of people who seem to understand this (with research in quantum and metaphysics), so it’s not without merit. What makes one form of spirituality any less or more crazy than the other? As long as it doesn’t involve hatred towards other people, I guess it doesn’t really matter.